Adriatic 
4/21/'20

Pressure

trapping you between its merciless hands
clasping and crushing your writhing spine squeezing your pitiful thrashing body
weighing down your entire being
as it suffocates your every limb


you manage to pry your eyes open to gaze at the ceiling
the dark water engulfs you,
a distant bulb of light
so far, so high
you thrash to reach it
but to your dismay, you stay in place


a shrill ringing, vibrating your skull, and stabbing into your ears
you've only moved an inch
just like the world you've seen and felt while sleeping


those vivid dreams where you can't see, you can't run
pain clutching your pounding heart as it sinks
sinks with the realization that you will never make it back to that distant, fading light


you will never see those faces again
will your body sink below here, decay
is this really how it ends


your chest is on fire, tingling pins and needles, seething, burning, spreading
that penetrating remorse, unlike anything you've ever felt in your lifetime
you think I should've done more, I could've done more.

until suddenly you feel the calmness washing over you.

Have you ever wondered what the last sound that you hear will be?
A Dream that Stuck 
05/11/24


Vivid floating images while I sleep
Dreams of glass shattering and snarling demons awakening
furious for unknown reasons

Cupboards swinging open
fine china piercing the silence
glistening porcelain flung against the walls and kitchen tiles
echoing and splitting into crystalline pieces

My lips curl into as smile as I stare deep into the big one's eyes
I feel a calmness, the gentle humming of my breathing, undisturbed

How amusing
The shadows and cloak have been lifted
A version of the past reduced to dust

The stillness is golden
Sunlight trickling into the scene
as I stand gazing at the chaos in that apartment